I feel like Iâ€™m always mad. If iâ€™m home and one of my family members tries to talk to me, majority of the time i get really frustrated and annoyed and end up being really mean or rude and starting a fight. i always try to tell myself to calm down because they i know that they didnâ€™t do anything wrong, but i canâ€™t help it. afterwards or even while iâ€™m being like this towards them iâ€™ll feel extremely guilty. once i actually get alone iâ€™ll start breaking down and crying because i donâ€™t like the way i am and iâ€™ll start beating myself up over it and everything else that i feel like is wrong with me. sometimes iâ€™ll just feel sad and like i need to cry, even though thereâ€™s really no reason to. i just donâ€™t know why iâ€™m like this and if anybody is the same way and how i can change it.