Long story short, life has ****** me over. Being abused by shitty parents, bullied, extreme stress at work because of my adhd all added up. Now I have bipolar which is a serious mental illness. Iâ€™ve been taking meds for it, but technically Iâ€™m dead. Bipolar people (without meds) go into deep depression and kill them selves. Iâ€™m basically dead. Iâ€™m broken and thereâ€™s no cure for it. I have to have a fake personality with those meds and they are the only barrier between me and my death. I donâ€™t want to live such a life. Iâ€™m basically dead. Nobody will ever love me because Iâ€™m broken and bipolar people are very much hated.