Iâ€™ve always had VERY low self esteem my whole life and I never had a boyfriend in my life and I think thatâ€™s because of my very low self esteem and because Iâ€™m shy and awkward.
The only interaction I get from guys is online and I become VERY clingy to them because Iâ€™m in constant need of attention. This one guy I met online who Iâ€™ve talked to for quite a while I get SEVERELY depressed when he doesnâ€™t text me one day and I see that heâ€™s online. I get so depressed that I donâ€™t want to talk to anyone like my family and I literally lay in bed all day until I get a text from him then Iâ€™m instantly happy again.
I also cry in my room for hours and sometimes hit myself because I hate myself and want to die. I get suicidal when he doesnâ€™t talk to me because I feel that nobody likes me and Iâ€™ll never have a boyfriend.
I even list my phone online when he doesnâ€™t talk to me because I think whatâ€™s the point of having a phone when nobody likes or talks to me..
Iâ€™ve been suicidal for years and when he doesnâ€™t talk to me or when someone else I really like doesnâ€™t talk to me I get extra suicidal until he talks to me again then I feel better and donâ€™t want to.
Am I psycho??