I have always been shy growing up bc I was teased & bullied a lot for my skin color (Iâ€™m Hispanic but very fair) and bc of my weight, Iâ€™ve always been naturally thin. Iâ€™ve always hated my skin color and my body. back in high school it was really bad but it got better after my senior year. Iâ€™m now in my early 20â€™s, a junior in college and I noticed my anxiety coming back. But worse. Iâ€™m still pretty thin but I gained like 10-15 pounds since HS and I come from a curvy family so I have wide hips but still feel too thin. Iâ€™ve embraced being a light Hispanic. But Iâ€™m still struggling with my body. I eat FINE and A LOT & Iâ€™m still not able to gain weight like other people. Iâ€™ve tried working out to tone up but have no motivation because â€śit didnâ€™t helpâ€ť in the past. I canâ€™t wear certain clothes because I donâ€™t think they look good on me. I always have to wear a long cardigan that covers my butt so people donâ€™t see how â€śflatâ€ť it is. The thing is though, everyone around me says I look completely fine. My family, my bf, my friends. If I looked â€śanorexicâ€ť Iâ€™m pretty sure they wouldâ€™ve freaked out & told me something by now. But the thing is I FEEL that thin. I look in the mirror & Iâ€™m disgusted. Going out I always feel like people are staring at me and thinking â€śomg she looks sickâ€ť when I really donâ€™t. Every time I see some1 looking I think theyâ€™re judging me. Itâ€™s getitng in the way of everything & Iâ€™m starting to just hate people because I feel like theyâ€™re always staring at me.